I do understand the process of considering step 1 often (daily). But here as a after thought.. I am talking of actual step one book work.
They say.. “This is the only step you have to get right the first time.”
I feel like, you ought to get all of them right if your going through the trouble…
Step 1 to me is something like this..
Sponsor.. Are you sure?
Troubled soul: yes
Angry Soul: Yes..
Sponsor: Absolutely Sure?
Raged Soul: Yes!!!
Sponsor: So.. Say it?
Quiet Soul: I am done.. I have had enough.. I surrender..
Sponsor: Good Job! Be Happy.. Blah Blah.. Ect…
I know that surrender is key in my recovery. because it opens doors to ideas and thoughts I did not have before I started this process. I can be open to Hope.. Hope..
Hope is a bright light in the darkness of my own creation. Hope is really all that I have going forward.
Things are so shaky being just over 30 days… But I proceed and hope I can demonstrate some kind of humility.. Just.. For my own sake!
Take care, B